taking this

moment

to wonder

if

I will ever

see you

again

happy

like a bar

like a church

like a celibate

priest

is it sunday

grace being
polite
learns to
walk away
finally

lasting in the happiness

she could dream
arrive and disappear

cloak and dagger
stuff
time bent stupid
true
insufficient

do not ask
do not ever
do
that again

the
giant hand
that saves
babies

the
world’s largest
toilet bowl

filled with music

just
a bunch of
spoiled motherfuckers
and thieves

bitchin’
about welfare

some people get
joyful letters
filled with
quotes and pictures

here I am
eating a cheeseburger

wish you were
here

like a leaf
I left
only to return

in the next
life
I
want to be
a bartender

in
the name of decency
please

wonder
if he knew

figured out that
nothing adds up

just add zero

loved your brain
sorry
I couldn’t fuck you
taught me
to appreciate words

still
couldn’t fuck you
over and over
a movie ending

I tried
I failed
besides
truly loved your
brain

he drove a bread
truck
told me all about
it
stopped listening to
everything
except his eyes

did he
like what he was
seeing
even listen
to what he was
saying

let me off
drop me anywhere
let me be
fucking alone

imagine pressure

imagine an explosion

shit everywhere

more

than a sponge

hot soapy water

could

ever fix

scariest
moment
in my death
living
not even trying
go write
the worst poem
ever
make it brief

does not
affect the outcome