which one

let me load the gun
let me point it
at my head
let me load the gun

i am john kennedy jr
am one of those
by the highway assassin
were they ever

i am a lie that
became truthful
fed up and tired
fueled by frustration
and remorse

read that in a book
in one of those pews
from one of those pulpits
by one of those preachers
made up for television
forgot which one