when i finally stopped
crying i
missed it

sadness felt right
after all

exalted imagined how
you were here drinking

water with tiny shots you
kept in a jacket pocket

excuse me now need
to fill a glass and
cherish
emptiness
refilled

you carried this picture
it was you
as a trophy
taken by a hunter
just
before the kill

abrupt
another ending

space heater
there are stories
about you
in the news

some of them are
good promoting
when used properly
they work

until
might as well be
unthoughtful
it happened

saw all the shit
in the news

name a
job
where people
actually
ask
how come
you are not
smiling

mom said
pray to god
pray often
and
pray to god

then took some
valium

guess
they
will survive

give me
my
bowl
of oat meal

working for
an
autograph

wondering
what
she will
say

how to get
out
from
all of it

today
a fear of
anything
more than
7
words

need to let
the pen take
over
does all the
work

just have
to
sit here
and
behave

as the
cream
rises

the
water and
sugar
boil

the egg is tempered

grew up
without
one of those
machines
made for slicing

used a sharp
knife

yesterday
given a
blindfold
said
wear this now
everyday

it was a goal
it was shot
with
a stick
past
the goalie

it was a goal
it was attained
went
to the magic
place
where goals
go

it was a goal
run a
marathon
be a trigger
be hope
be
humor