some people get
joyful letters
filled with
quotes and pictures

here I am
eating a cheeseburger

wish you were
here

like a leaf
I left
only to return

in the next
life
I
want to be
a bartender

in
the name of decency
please

wonder
if he knew

figured out that
nothing adds up

just add zero

loved your brain
sorry
I couldn’t fuck you
taught me
to appreciate words

still
couldn’t fuck you
over and over
a movie ending

I tried
I failed
besides
truly loved your
brain

he drove a bread
truck
told me all about
it
stopped listening to
everything
except his eyes

did he
like what he was
seeing
even listen
to what he was
saying

let me off
drop me anywhere
let me be
fucking alone

imagine pressure

imagine an explosion

shit everywhere

more

than a sponge

hot soapy water

could

ever fix

scariest
moment
in my death
living
not even trying
go write
the worst poem
ever
make it brief

does not
affect the outcome

mother
had it difficult
juggling
the job and
sex

smells
like propane
or
somebody dying
in
the basement

she
made me smile
all the while
crying
her way
thru the day

where I live
now
there are horses
not everyone
drives a car

I can imagine
that
I guess

finally gone crazy
free from the
everyday

silly

her smile

could

break your heart

so

be careful

and somewhere in
the past
there is
this tiny person

waiting