with memories of
her very first
orgasm

joyfully described breaking
hearts and
resentment

the taste of love
with ketchup

a marching band playing
guns and roses
a new song
never even heard

driving down the highway
then
listening

for a modern
memory

add water
to
a seed
in the dirt
and watch
as
it performs some
magic

am here
today
and
at some point
gone
tomorrow

drugs are illegal
unless
you get a
note
from a doctor

i have nightmares
and
sometimes i perspire

got anything

when i finally stopped
crying i
missed it

sadness felt right
after all

exalted imagined how
you were here drinking

water with tiny shots you
kept in a jacket pocket

excuse me now need
to fill a glass and
cherish
emptiness
refilled

you carried this picture
it was you
as a trophy
taken by a hunter
just
before the kill

abrupt
another ending

space heater
there are stories
about you
in the news

some of them are
good promoting
when used properly
they work

until
might as well be
unthoughtful
it happened

saw all the shit
in the news

name a
job
where people
actually
ask
how come
you are not
smiling

mom said
pray to god
pray often
and
pray to god

then took some
valium

guess
they
will survive

give me
my
bowl
of oat meal

working for
an
autograph

wondering
what
she will
say

how to get
out
from
all of it