wanted
then
wanted more
then
wanted
to take a shower
feel the water
warm
so i could
understand

tomorrow
never came
instead
i got a car
that
has a radio

drives me
home

as if
i
was not
a human being

it exists
in the spotlight
in
the shadows

unity
collective
take the wallet
start
bleeding
and save
the
paperwork

in a crisis
this war
continues
poisoned

is water
the
the only problem
business as usual
now
i’m gonna go
die

until then
remember
tell me something
good and
special

got
pepper spray
sharp nails
and even
carry
a rotten egg

did it
because
when i was
little
i could look
at
the sky

return
now to
finish

standing still
as
words
fly by
here comes
an
idea
there goes
a
thought
reality being
a
candle
being a
handle
for a door
that opens
shut

when
there will
be
no more

this pen
from a florida
steakhouse
writes it’s last
word
no ink left
anyway
comes down to
blood

sold for parts
a ring finger
a heart
a few kidneys
some blood
hair
and chakra numbers
2 and 6

waited ten years
so
what’s a
couple
more months
without
your notebooks
and laughter

how do i write
about
fucking you

pastels
became oil then
acrylic
became a button
became a color
still choose
lines
light producing shadows
sees everything red
firetrucks
in the driveway
you were gone
when i got home
then stopped
suddenly
then started
all in one
motion
landing
on your outstretched
finger
to rest

again
just like
yesterday

kill me
i
might like or need that
love
is a strange
creator

how it all ended

with a laugh
remembering
not to cry

still
i want to