joy
surround me
thru
this troubled
time

joy
surround you
see
what
you need to
see

beware
all your friends
are foul
they
want to
steal
seal you
with
the misguided
kiss

now we get a lesson
a map
left
by a dog
where is the bone

so i puked
your picture
on a canvas
in a gallery
next to
a portrait of
Duchamp
felt
hung
on a nail
a urinal
without
a drain

appeared as
a broken down
dull knife
stuck in the
throat
of someone
imposing
larger than a
shadow
projected
on the ceiling
of a
hospital
where i
stayed

adore you
and
always will
can
hurt me
no
longer
happy
and unable
to
speak

said
why
care

said because
caring is better
than using a
spoon to
scoop out your
eyes
and feed them
one at a
time
to nobody

how’s life
going
gone lost
as if
laughter was
painful

are you happy
do you lie
that’s right baby
overexcited
forward
sightless
congratulating
all
accept yourself

desperate
for just
a key
to throw
into the ocean
on the sand
watching
it splash
and
sink

that
would apply
to
everybody
and
sometimes
probably you

tired of crying

911
came and went
turned into some
kind
of holiday

a reminder of
a time when

***

when
michael
burned my house
down he
was having
fun

came home that
night
and
never
came home again

get over
that
or this
or the next

jumping
out
of windows
the
first thing seen
when
departing the train

devastating
worse than war

point a finger
catch a wave

the sky was
so
blue
so blue