they would eat
get full
and keep eating
greed
rapacious poverty
never enough
always full
always more to
eat

fearing contagion
how
you could drive
by
and i
would become
sick

just the thought
ignorant
in a car seat
determined
to go nowhere

and you deserve life
deserve happiness
deserve the time spent
never being alone

vulgar
marginalized
whittled
into
the shape of a
nun
kneeling
fingering a rosary
singing
prayers to god

seen as prelude
a commercial
about a commercial
money
gets you a look

unless
you know how to
read

 

 

can not
run away
can
possibly walk
can
still get
somewhere
just
wanting to
be
more than
opaque

slow down
the walls are
calling

blah blah blah
cheeseburger
may i have
an oreo
milkshake

you are what i
know i need
words trapped
inside
a speaker

we will be here
together
feel
the dreadful beat
and
do not
forget to dance
yeah to know
oh oh oh oh

this takes place
in a car
just off
44th street

does anyone really
like grand rapids
in the winter
just
a few

it is
pretty
cold and white
how
would you describe
it

not a word left
to say

a love song
so stupid
it
could only
happen to
me

 

clarity

was fucking sick
thought i was dying
cause i am

asking for a pardon
just let the clock
tick
alittle longer

found
what had been
missing

— — —

death’s release to
somebody
you probably know

heard the fatal news
said something about
not coming here
i surrender
waited
not really
just did not want
to wander
without and
how
that is nonsense
spoken
in thought and
in person

— — —

how
to release
yourself
from yourself
thru rhythm
or performance
back stage
concentration
hitting the mark
then the light finds you
empty

refusing to go there

would rather be thoughtfully
rich
as in a bird with
a sensitive beak
craving

never thought about being
captured or ruptured
or anything except maybe
landing after all
perfecting the difficult
the impossible
please do not let me leave
we can pray
often
seldom
invisible

because i see you
tortured parts and
by people you
know

always going never
going
to be the same
so you know better
your past life
as
a boomerang

please come here and
stay
save a front row seat
put them on a guest list

please come here and
stay
type a song write about
happiness forgiveness
found what was missing
forever waited
found what was missing
making me wonder
making me missing
frontal lobe silence
anticipated distortion
so fucking sick
thought i was dying
cause i am
loving you
anyway

the brain being
a complex organ
full of pipes
and sound

lets
feed the hungry
exploit the faith
make it up

many years ago
when the blue moon
laughed and
the town followed
all the way
got the answer
needed
to advance