nothing
and a gift

seen
what you would
say
was a ghost
once

wasn’t like that at all

then twice
then
would see them
almost
daily

there is a whole
other
world
somewhere
pretty close

shot self
in
foot
because
thought
that
was where
the brain is

was right

smelled like a
cigarette and
a sewer

a combination
minus lock

hey where’s the lake
over there pointing

buy some soap
A toothbrush
more cigarettes

I am tired

loathing is when
you
open the door
walk inside
and
say
hello

to you and your shitty
world
drive your car from
here to grand
haven
running over deer

nobody deserves death
still
everybody dies
and
what makes you so
bitter

a series or
one
horrible marriage

we did laugh once
it was funny

woke up here

time
invented by a
flower
passed
on to a bee
that
will
eventually sting
me

time
a whisper
heard
centuries ago
on a ship
crossing land
that
would later
become
the ocean
Pacific

if
I live to be
1,000
900
count it down

if
I live to be
60
so what

of
I live to be
80
imagine

of
I live to be
10
hope I grow young

if
I live
then
make something called
art maybe

preparing for this
plans
a speech
a suit
a rut
a death
a moment
to relax
never

you
broken machine
lifeless
useless
for parts
or metal

a soul
sold
on speculation

one day
never
you
can pay me
back